all that's left

Don't want to live. Don't want to die.
Sick of feeling ripped off all the time.
I made these choices, this is my bed.
And it's the only place I get to lay my head.

Should've known better - it's easy to say.
But harder to live at the start of the day.
I waited for you but you left me alone.
Abandoned and broken with nowhere to roam.

Now I have to retreat but there is no escape from
the hurting and burning because mistakes have been made.
Saw my reflection - caught only a glimpse.
Never could stand the sight of ruin or ritz.

Won't be long til it's over and done and things become
how they were before this charade begun.

Wanted him more, he wanted me less.
Shouldn't take it so hard - it was easy to guess -
that I'd be back here at the end of the fall
With nowhere to hide & nowhere to crawl.

Just worse for wear with no one who cares.

Worthless endeavors and lonely repreives -
wish I wasn't always the one who grieves.