So I haven't had much to say recently. I had a fair amount lupus issues: fatigue, joint pain and even chest pain in early September. That has eased some. I had a birthday which netted me very little drama but kept me busy for a week. I'm still juggling 2 jobs - the grocery job is better since the head baker quit last week. He was a unpleasant territorial little man who spread misery like an infectious disease. His absence makes the job more tolerable than it was. I still want out in a big way but it doesn't look like it's going to happen soon.
My main job has become increasingly busy. Lots of motion but we're still waiting for the payoff. I'm just focused on doing the best I can - I'm trying not to worry about the money as that is a major a distraction. Survival isn't going to cut it - we need to thrive.
I've got to say...living poorly is getting old. I have two teeth that are about to turn on me but I don't have the resources. I'm going to end up in an emergency situation again. I got a referral from a co-worker to a dentist - they charged me $500. for xrays and a cleaning. $500.!!!! I could've had an entire crown done for that much. Nothing I can do about it now. Just have to hope that my teeth hold out long enough for me to pay that off and scrape more together to get them fixed one at a time.
I haven't been grocery shopping in almost a month. I do pick up a handful of things on Fridays when I get 30% off. A loaf of bread, a carton of milk, a few apples, some deli meat - the makings for a few not-so-well-rounded meals. Saving up for the dentist (who I thought was going to help me but totally jacked me instead) used up most of my food money.
It's pitiful really. I know it is. I can't believe I've been living like this for over a year. It is totally ridiculous that I am working 60 hours a week and I still can't afford to feed myself. How is that even possible? Who knew being so poor would make me so whiny...
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