The Good The Bad and The Undecided

Well, lots of change happening...now and soon. The Grocery store job is going to be over next month. They are closing down our location and I got laid off. While I've wanted to get out of the job - it's happening sooner than I planned. I was thinking I would hold onto it until March or April. Until my other job was paying me well enough to ensure I could quit without suffering. This is definitely not my timing.

The Office job is changing too, downsizing. We are moving - today & tomorrow - and starting over in a new office. No more mortgages - we're going to be doing mostly Debt Settlements. Lots of leads & advertising - radio, live calls & whatever else we can think of. Whatever it takes to make the phone ring.

For my part, I won't really be a loan processor anymore. I'll be doing all kinds of stuff - I suspect bookkeeping is going to be taking up a lot of my time. I don't have much practical experience keeping books. I'm going to have to take a crash course. And there'll be lots of prayer because I already know I can't do this on my own.

I'm trying to max my health & dental benefits out before the final axe falls. I've been pretty sick lately. I just don't feel good. I've been having trouble breathing, heart palpitations, crazy hair loss, fatigue, wicked coughing fits, nagging toothaches...I'm falling apart! I go on Wednesday to look over the bloodwork with the doctor. I want her to figure out what this is so I can get better. Hypothyroidism is my guess but I don't know yet.

I hope it is easy to fix and perhaps somehow involve rebooting my stuck-in-concrete metabolism so I can get some of this weight off. I know I'm not right if I actually want go get to sleep and that's what's going on tonight. I haven't been breathing since this afternoon and that has sapped all my energy. I just want to get healthy so I can stop feeling & sounding like I'm 90.

Still with all that is going on, I feel a bit hopeful. If I could just make it halfway to my end goal financially - get some immediate needs met & end some of this relentless pressure off... Man that is what I'm desperately hoping for. Tomorrow is a big day and I'm totally drained so I'm done complaining for the night. I'll check back in on Wednesday - hopefully with some good news for once!